Forgiven

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I am reminded of the wrong that I
have said and done
And that devil just won't let me forget
In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what i am
I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
I don't have to carry the weight
on who I've been 'cause i'm
forgiven
Wrong mistakes are running through
my mind
And i relive my days in the
middle of the night
And i struggle with my pain
And wrestle with my pride
Sometimes i feel alone and i cry
In this life i know what i've been
But here in your arms i know
what i am
I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
I don't have to carry the weight on
who i've been 'cause i'm forgiven
When i don't fit in
And i don't feel like i belong anywhere
When i don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ
'Cause i'm forgiven
Oh, I'm forgiven
I don't have to carry the weight on who i've been
'Cause I'm forgiven

Lyrcs by Santus Real

Transcending by Kelly Corrigan

Thankful for all my friends who hold me up and who have always been there.  Many go way back to grade school, high school, and new ones along the way..........  Love you all!

Love Casting Crowns

Jesus, friend of sinners, we have strayed so far away
We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to swing
Jesus, friend of sinners, the truth's become so hard to see
The world is on their way to You but they're tripping over me
Always looking around but never looking up I'm so double minded
A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours


Jesus, friend of sinners, the one who's writing in the sand
Made the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands
Help us to remember we are all the least of these
Let the memory of Your mercy bring Your people to their knees
Nobody knows what we're for only what we're against when we judge the wounded
What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and loved like You did

Oh Jesus, friend of sinners
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus, friend of sinners, break our hearts for what breaks yours

You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast
For the leper and the lame; they're the reason that You came
Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast
But you died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

'Cause You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever

God's Will

I've made some huge horrible mistakes in my life.  I often would wonder how could God possibly forgive me.  My Goal this year was to read the Bible front to back.  I'm currently less than half way through.  Although I remember all the Bible stories growing up.  I have grown much closer to my Lord over these last few months.  The bible is full of horrible sins, unforgivable actions.  God does not differentiate between one sin to the next.  We all fall short of the Glory of God.   God will be the judge for the things we did wrong in our lives.  He will render punishment for our wrongs.  He does not take in to count how many rights you did.  We have one job and that is to be obedient of God.  I am so thankful for the lessons that God has brought me through in my life.  I am so thankful that I have grown closer to my heavenly father and savior.   My family has so much farther to come as we mold our lives to please God.

     I know our family will meet many more challenges in our lives but I know now that anything can be done with God at the head of our household.  

God allows us to be broken so we can't look any where but up.

It's funny because for as long as I can remember I've been taught that you don't share your business with anyone outside your direct family.  Unfortunately, I suck at that rule, I feel that if my life experiences can help one person than it's worth it.  I was listening to word FM this am which is my favorite radio station.  They were talking about this exact thing.  I was thankful that this christian community backs me on this.  Some of the most amazing people that we could ever meet have been broken and it's their stories that give each and every one of us hope.  Miss America's father went to prison while she was in her late teens.  This empowered her to make her entire campaign on helping the children of incarcerated parents.  When she discussed this with her parents telling them of her plans and asking permission to share their families story,  her dad said go for it.  Why did he feel this way because he understood the impact that his daughter could have on other children going through a similar situation.  He also said that God would bring out the good.  Now that is a courageous man.

Although it seems so long ago it was only a few months ago when I felt completely lost, betrayed, and worthless.
At one point tears streaming down my face as we faced possibly losing our house I yelled at God saying where are you.  Are you sleeping?  Just like the men on the boat.  I drug myself to church that Sunday feeling numb.  It was that service that opened my eyes to the fact that God wasn't sleeping and was right there beside me.  I have told my patients many times that even when things seem as though they are impossible or we are grieving a loss he always has a plan.  He puts us through these tests for a good reason.  How often can we look back on our lives and say wow if that never happened then this or that wouldn't have happened in my life.  Even when we can't see any good and can't understand why God would put us through the things he does we have to know he understands why it's necessary.

I'm now working a normal work week with excellent benefits, and so many days off I can't hardly believe it.  My boss is a phenomenal lady with tons of experience.  I learn so much from her.  She possesses all the qualities that I feel makes a excellent boss.  She leads by example, doesn't stomp on people to get to the top, and isn't afraid to get her hands dirty.  I'm finally getting back to my old self a self that I haven't seen for at least a year.  During my time off I was able to catch up with all my friends from high school who have been a huge support.  Love you guys! We look forward to getting to church more regularly.  I'm pumped to hear David's message every week.  I hate it when I have to miss.  I feel more blessed than ever to be putting my family second only after God.  Although I love my patients I tend to put everyone around me before my family.  I will need continued prayers and support to change this bad habit but I'm on the right track.

Hello Blog!

Updating blog with some pics I have taken over the last few weeks.

 My kids wearing their hats to the dinner table.  Crazy kids.

Bella doing what she does best talking on the phone.

 Not exactly sure what Noah is doing but I think he is attempting to empty the trash.

My November birchbox.  My love!

Freak End of October snow storm.

 I had to get a pic of my Penn State Lion covered in snow.

Amy I finally got these candles up on the wall.

These are the coolest candles they have saw tooth blades and the length can be adjusted.

and Amy I know it isn't up on the way yet but at least it's on display. lol

This is the crocheting cocoon or as Chrissy calls it my nest.

Just some of my yarn.

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